Another death in the family.
This is getting to be a yearly event around here. Sadness and nostalgia overwhelm me.
On a side note, I was going through my personal folder today and ran across this piece I had written some time ago.
======= I Forgave You ========
I forgave you for forgetting me,
for walking away from us three.
I am over my anger, my pain, and the betrayal.
I’ve accepted that you are foolish and frail.
You call once every 5 years
And gift me with justification and tears.
You live in a world where words and deeds don’t match.
And love is just an emergency hatch.
You say you want to be a matriarch.
Wow! That’s a shot in the dark.
I’ve lived my life without you, and so have my boys.
They don’t know you and refuse to be your toys.
“Let’s all get together,” you say
on the day after New Year’s Day.
And you talk of the children you kept and raised
who visited over the holidays.
I don’t cry for my Mommy any more.
You’ve been long gone out the door.
But every time we talk, my heart bleeds.
I forgave you, so why are you still hurting me?
==Cindy Marsh Douglass
